The Emotional Dissapearnace
Gabrielle Carter
1st Block
“I don’t understand how this can happen to me.” I stand in the middle of my treehouse floor staring up at the ceiling. Tears drip from my face and wet my nose and for a moment I wish everything was simple. “Penny darling are you there?”I sniff one more time and bite my lip. TO my surprise my mom is sitting on the treehouse stairs watching me. As I descend the wooden stairs, the sky opens and I feel my body getting soaked from the rain. Grabbing me, my mom pulls me to the patio shielding me from life and sorrow. ‘hey mom.” My mom puts her haand to her mouth and shhs me. Then she hands me the phone. “Hey penny it’s Rosin.” At the mention of her name I feel my throat clench up and suddenly I cannot breath. I drop the cellphone on the floor and dash to my room, leaving everything behind.
She was calling to apologize. The idea rushes over me like a steam truck rolling over fresh cement. How could I not forgive her? The incident happened weeks ago. Suddenly, I hear a knock on the door and I am afraid it is my mom. And it is, only she doesn’t look angry. Instead she crumples how long day gown and ruffles the sheets on my bed, and plops down. I expect her to lecture me about how much her iphone costs but instead she wraps me in a hug. I smell her vanilla and I weep. Crying until her shoulder is wet, then when she gets up to leave, I open my journal and I write.
Memories. When we were first born, still bloody and wet from the womb, My mom said Rosin and I gave each other high fives. From that moment on, We grew together like peas in a pod. Our favorite passtime was indulging ourselves in Nancy drew novels. THe mystery and adventure transforme us to a new world and got both of us through the first years of high school. In middle school we split and left our little pods. Sh went to North SCHWAZER and I went to SOuth SHWZER Then in 8th grade majic happen. Rosin magically appeared at my school. lighting up my year.That year we moved from books to asking question. WHy ddi water flow forward? WHy did birds fly North? WHy did toilets flush (don’t ask how that one turned out)? What I don’t understand is how Rosin can take all of those golden memories and flush them down the toilet. Here is how it went down.
It was October 2 and like a normal morning I rode the giant catepillar bus. The bus had to be 30 feet long and had loopy words that had to be scribbled on by a drunk santa. It was called the catepillar because as it scooted down the street jt bounced up and down like a catepillar on stilts.As usual, I climb on the bus and about to sit next to Rosin when I notice a short kid with reddish orange hair silky brown eyes and lips that were gone, becaus ehe was kissing my best friend. In other words Rosin wa kissing my crush Ian. Lip to lip and everything. I bet she enjoyed the feeling of her tounge on his teeth. I don’t feel my legs as I settle into a seat next to Caligha the national booger picker of our grade. Sometimes I wonder if she digs so far she feels her nose bleeding. For two days I avoided Rosin. At lunch, in the class, and even in carr-iders. I began to notice changes too. Where as before Rosin would wrap me in a hug, each time our eyes met I saw a coldness that was there and then flickered away like a candle light being blown out. I also noticed that her and Ethan were hanging out more holding hands in the hallway. It irked me even though I knew I should be happy for my best friend.
One day, when I came home to my treehouse I found a note tucked under the box with my old weathered magazines stuffed inside. “Call me I just want to say sorry and I hope there are no hard feelings.” 2 days later I found her standing in the same place.
As Rosin sat down on a milk crate I felt my heart drop. “Why are you here I thought you and Ethan were so buddy buddy that you didn’t need me anymore.” Rosin sighed and tucked her hands in her pockets. “I’m so sorry.” I ignore the apology. “You KNEW I liked him Rosin, I talked about him all the time.” To my surprise, ROsin leaned forward and breathed a deep breath. “Penny, why are you acting like such a nut lately?” My temperature rose like a kitchen stove. “WHat do you mean? You stole my crush” “No I didn’t he was available.” For 30 minutes we argued until our voices were hoarse. I didn’t even say goodbye as Rosin jumped off the ladder of my treehouse, grabbed her bike, and flicked me off.
Current
“Hey are you OK?” It takes me a minute to realize that I am at Pine Gates middle school. My friend Anna is holding my arm and shaking me. I shrug my shoulders and turn to open my locker. Then, from my left ear I hear it, a snicker. I turn my lock 3 times but it doesn’t open. The snickers get louder.I whip around to see the princess crew and Rosin. My heart breaks audibly. “Rosin you promised me>” i yell to Rosin. “You promised you would never do this.” But Rosin just sniffs and turns on her heels leaving me alone to bang on the locker. I feel Anna pulling my arm. “DO you want me to get Mr Mack?” “NO!!! it’s cool just leave me alone.” Sulkily, Anna gives me a fistbump and heads to class. I sigh and sink to the gritty floor. I feel like I am going to die, when a voice calls to me “Hey what’s up?” I look up to see a handsome kid holding a bible and a giant book-bag that balances well with his relaxed outfit. “I can’t open my locker.” I show him my battle scars 4 red spots the size of 4 quarters. Sneezing SMith turns my locker thing one time and it pops open.
You know those super religious kids who walk around carrying bibles? Smith is one of those. A hard core bile kid and is always either arguing about the bible or singing Hallelujah in his tenor voice. Today, as we stand at the locker, he seems normal. “Look, I know there is something going on between you and Rosin, but it’s ok.” He grabs my hand and squeezes it. Then he turns on his hall and walks away.
The rest of the day it feels like my head is stuck in a giant tub of marshmallow fluff. If a brick fell on my head I feel as though it would have shrunk due to the sheer negativity. So when the school bell rings the noise is a relief. For a moment I see the sun peeking out from its hiding place. That is, until I get to the bus. Today the bus is crammed. Rosin doesn’t even cross my mind as I stand next to Smith. As usual he is arguing about the bible says “No Corinthians says this not that.”He picks up his bible to quote it, but stops abruptly when he sees me.Time is frozen in his clear green eyes. I hear someone call “What’s up with you and
Rosin?” but before I can answer Smith pulls me into the bus seat and crams a piece of paper in my hands. I want to ask what it is but i notice a red blush creeping up into his shirt neck. Once Smith goes from the bus I open the crumpled piece of paper. On it is his number.
Home
I walk into my house to see my mom and my baby sister doing the downward dog stretch in front of the TV. A lonely candle stands next to Towa, and afraid she will get burnt, I move the candle to the kitchen counter. Taking a deep breath, I relax into the couch. “Hey mom do you know this kid named SMith Keener?” My mom jumps up so fast I am afraid that she will knock the fish reef off the wall.” “Yeah Smith’s moms work at my job.” I almost double over. “Wait Smith’s parents are gay? I thought that was against his christianity.” Suddenly, my little brother bursts into the door. His knee is skinned and dirt layers his blonde hair. “Guess what mom! I got an A!” My mom leaps up from the kitchen stool and rushes over to him, obviously finished with the downward dog stretch. My brother has severe ADD and getting him to focus is like teaching a dog not to bark, hard and frustrating. A lot of times, I find him holed up in his room playing with his stuffed monkey Cornelius, a stark contrast to many 13 year olds.
Uninterested, I walk outside and into the treehouse. I am so deep in thought that I do not notice a small note “Forgive me or you will be sorry.”The paper flutters to the ground and is trampled under my feet. “
BAM CRASH BOOM The rain bounces off my window like ping pong balls in a machine. “WHy did he give you his number?” I lay on my bed thinking and texting Anna. “I don’t know, that is what I am trying to figure out.” I look at the damp pper and sigh. “I know why it was because of Rosin, today I could not open my locker and he saved my butt.” At the mention of Rosin, a loud burst of thunder shakes the house. My window panes begin to flutter and just like that the power is out. Outside, the lonely paper floated through the wind like a bird.
Next day
“Well look at you ,Penny, Looks like Rosin isn’t here to save you.” I feel my back pushing up against the locker, the lock stabbing me like a knife. Shark girl grabs my collar, and just when I think I am going to die, Max, the same guy who asked me and Rosin on the bus the other day, rams into Shark girl the result is epic. That is all I see as I dash to class sweating and hot.
“Hey can I sit next to you?” I look up from deep thought to see Smith his long hair curled and beautiful. I suddenly wonder why my temperature has skyrocketed. All period we avert eyes and Smith doesn’t talk to me until the end of class. He is out of breath and looks frantic as he pulls me to the side. :Rosin is gone.” I look around the hallway wondering if being seen with Smith the Goody 2 shoes would ruin my medium good rep. “WHat do you mean> SHe is right there.” Out of nowhere, is the shark crew prancing and giggling as usual comes up the hallway. ANd there I see the familiar mop of brunette hair. Then, by a strike of luck the girl turns her head. I am shocked. “Maria, the mathelete, and star reporter is in the Princess Crew?!” Smith must have known how distracted I was and he grabs me in a hug. It is so unexpected that I almost pee my pants. Then, with my head leaning on his shoulder he whispers “Call me tonight.”
I do not clll. Tuesday night I sat in my treehouse smoking smarties and flipping through my rag tag crew of magazines. Thinking about how when Smith hugged me it made my fingers tingle. Wednesday I don’t bother. My mom has me watch my baby brother and sister and I have dinner duty. THen, thursday I got a call. THe three words uttered would change my life for good. “Turn on the TV.:
Lights. Fire.Tears,On the Tv stands Phil the weatherman dressed in a yellow parka. It’s funny because the same guy who hopped up and down when the Mets won the world series, stands still as a coffin, as he says these words. “GIrl missing.”
Scrolling down at the bottom is the headline. Girl Missing house left in shambles. In the picture, is the yellow brick house on briggs road. The same house with 13 goldfish and the house that always smelled of pizza. The house where Rosin and I sat when we were 8, me crying over dad, Rosin hugging me. The same home now only a ghost of what was there before. “Rosin burned down her own house.” The thought makes me skin crawl. In front of the house stands Rosin’s mom. Her cool demeanor gone and replaced with the fragility of a 15 year old girl who gets teased at school and feels empty. Next to her stands the same guy who always baked cookies when we came over and though he was obsessed with work always had time to give me a hug.
“Hey are you still here?” I crash back into reality. “Yeah” Then I hang up. It is cold outside but I have no trouble slipping unto the sidewalk. My feet find their way to the brightly colored sign that reads SNiKZEN Diner. As I walk inside I grasp the familar smells and slight smell of oil. Cowetta, the super-intendent and head chef, stands at the counter mesmerized by the TV. However, it only takes a moment for Cowetta to dash from behind the counter and wrap me in a hug. It takes the same amount of time for the doorbell to ring. In enters Maria. “Hey dear, You know what you need? A chocolate milkshake.” Maria is talking to a dark haired boy with eyes the color of coals. I think his name is Mark but he is so silent he dissappers into the backdrop. A moment later I find myself in the booth right in front of them,listening to their hushed voices. I hear Mria leaning in. “I think I know where Rosin went. The other day before PE when we were dressing she said that she was running to.” “Penny here is your milkshake.” At this moment Cowetta comes rushing from the break room and sings the robust song she sings to every customer. Still, I am so surprised that I jump up from the table. I make the mistake of looking at Maria and I notice something. Her bubbliness are gone and her eyes are dead and cold looking. Without a piece of a goodbye I rush out of the diner.
I spend the rest of the night bawling my eyes out. How could I have missed those last words? My eyes slide to plastic, badly drawn maps ,we have placed all over the tree house using colored duct tape. Suddenly, I see a tiny star on the map it is in California. I quickly calculate the time in my head. California would be 12 hours away. Before I get any further, I realize something. Rosin would not go to where everyone else would be, she would go in the opposite direction.
School
School rushes by in a blur. Greens look like blues, hugs and stares are the ordinary, and suddenly I am popular. The worse part is that I can’t move my neck. I spent all last night searching the internet to see where my friend may have went. Then after about 30 minutes I fell asleep on the milk crates for fear of waking up my mom who would be angry as a devil if she found out that I was walking the streets late at night. Smith is even more bible based today and I notice that he stares at me for long durations of times and then looks away. However, as the clock struck time to go I grabbed Smiths arm and walked him to the bus. I had a very important to ask him about his parents and I think he would know the answer.
“So are your parents gay?” “What?! Where did you hear that from?” SMith almost jumps out the bus seat. I look down at the ground and scrape my foot over a piece of gum. “I asked..” Smith looked at me and raised an eyebrow. We are silent the rest of the ride. But as he stood to go he looked at me and in a serious tone said “Call me tonight and I will tell you everything.”
So I did. In the quiet of my room when the clock strikes 10:00 I call. The voice that answers is a women’s voice clear as can be.I am so jittery that I almost hang up. The only remotely comfortable voice is Smith’s. “Penny this is Alyssa, my first mom. Alyssa meet Penny.” Somehow I get out a hello from my lips. His first mom sounded awesome and cool like Anna. The second voice enters the conversation. This one is slightly deeper but just as positive sounding. “Penny, this is my second mom, Jane.” A wave of nausea passes over me.The thought that a christian. Another wave of nausea attacks my stomach. Thankfully, the ladies voices disappear and with it the bile in my throat. “Don’t worry it’s weird but you will get used to them.” Then he launches into this long story of two crafter/entreprenuers who met and married after the grandfather of the child died. After story was done, I felt ok again. “SO I have one question what is it like living with two moms?” I hear Smith’s voice crack. “Well, what is it like living with a mom and a barely dad?” Touche. “SO tell me about your parents.” Smith asks. I begin to launch into the story of how my parents met but he stops me mid sentence. “No, what is your greatest fear.” I pause and look outside a the silver mom. “My greatest fear is losing my best friend.” And that’s how our call went.
2:00 AM
I wake up with a start to see my phone flashing. The screen reads Amber Alert and i sit up so fast that I almost fall off the bed. For in the picture is ROsin and she is headed for trouble.
Rosin
I really didn’t mean to break Penny’s heart. As I sit here, I wonder how I could have been such an awful friend. So maybe this is karma getting back at me for deserting my very best friend in the world. Maybe that’s why I ended up this stupid trunk, wrapped in a burlap sack and tied up into chains. For all I know, Penny could be looking for me and not ever find me. She could get lost. I try to break from my chains but the burlap sack is tying me down. I take out a pen from under the bags of marajuana and start to write
Dear Penny
I’m sorry for being such a bad friend
Suddenly the trunk opens and I become still as a piece of wood. For the first time I see my perpetrator he is tall and handsome and is dressed in a classy tan pantsuit and alligator skin dress up shoes.I take this moment to look around and that’s when it clicks we are the deserted mall in Vershell only 45 minutes from my house. I hear whispers about weed and money and trunk and the guy tries to come back to close the trunk but the man is speaking in Spanish betting more money to keep the turn open. As the guy who saves my butt leaves I focus on the real issue at hand.
As soon as they are disappear into the building I role over to my stomach and grab a pair of emergency wire cutters.it only takes a few swift cuts for them to fall to the ground. Like a smart person, I stuff the burlap sack with bags of money and the chains and then I leave. It only take me 30 minutes to reach the barrier between trees and the city. Just when I’m home free a hand grabs me by the waist and covers my mouth.
Penny
I did not even think. Once I saw the Amber Alert I pulled on my shoes grabbed my coat and dashed out to the car. I was thinking so fast, I forgot that I didn’t know how to drive. It only takes a minute for the car to reach the deserted Industrial building. Then, I wait. Suddenly,like a gazelle leaping through the grass. I see Rosin, she is running really fast. So I do what most would do. I grab her in a hug and put my hand over her mouth so she doesn’t scream. Her heart is pumping so fast. But so is mine. Suddenly, I hear the perpetraitor car and its roaring after us. “Hurry, Run.” I grab Rosin’s hand and try to pull her along. “i can’t make it.” Rosin says starting to slow down. Forgetting every grudge I’d ever felt I hoisted Rosin unto my back and ran the rest of the way. In front of us is the cave and on the other side is trees so thick not even a car can get through it. We crawl through the wall just in time. The perpurtraitor’s car screeches to a stop.
conversation
“OMG I’M so glad you are OK!” I hug ROsin tightly. As we sit there together everything falls back into balance again. Then I notice something. The sun is starting to rise over the trees looking like a bright orb. I look at my friend and smile. And she smiles back.
“OMG where are the girls have you seen them?” Ms Penny sat on the countertop. “Yes I woke up this morning to find..” There was a pause on the other side of the line as Smith came unto the phone. “Turn on the TV!” Phil stood there looking like a proud man. “THese 2 girls were found in the forests woods.” And just like that the world shifted back into balance
THe End.